Posts Tagged ‘balance’

Akkermansia Muciniphila

Monday, June 3rd, 2013



Apparently, it has been recently discovered that an intestinal bacteria called Akkermansia Muciniphila is significantly lower in people with obesity and type 2 Diabetes.  The studies have only been done on mice at this time but the results are promising.  It seems that when obese mice and mice with type 2 diabetes are given this bacterium they drop pounds without changing their diet.  Even mice that were given high fat diets digested their food better and lost weight.  In these test mice, higher levels of A. muciniphila reversed fat mass gain, insulin resistance, adipose tissue inflammation and metabolic endotoxemia.  It also seemed to help with inflammatory bowel disease.  

Here’s the article published in “Proceedings of the National Academy of Sciences of the USA”

This is a welcome bit of knowledge for me, not because I will finally be able to lose the extra fat (a treatment for people will not be available for some time), but because it helps explain why I’ve been fat pretty much my whole life.  I mean seriously, I eat way better than a lot of my skinny friends.  I even exercise more than some of them yet I consistently carry around more pounds.  It always seemed really unfair to me.  And is a lot of the reason I gave up caring about my health a few years ago.  Giving up hope that I could ever be thin made me just give up all together because as any one who has weight issues knows being treated like a loser by most of society sucks.  Being told you aren’t good enough if you are overweight gets to you after a while.  Surely I’m not the only person who has felt the leering eye of a skinny person looking down on you because they assume you don’t do anything or care enough about your health.  (A big fat raspberry to all of those people) I would try and try with little to no results and simply be told I hadn’t tried hard enough.  The only time I was even close to an ideal weight (and I would still have been considered overweight) I was on a strict vegan diet, I did hard labour work for anywhere from 4-8 hours 7 days a week, and I walked about 15 miles a week.  That is not an easily sustainable lifestyle.  I mean seriously, I would like to enjoy my life a little as well.

Here’s hoping that Akkermansia Muciniphila is a positive answer for a lot of people in the same boat as me.  All the people who work hard at staying healthy but still want to enjoy their lives.  Let’s keep our fingers crossed.

Me and my Guitar

Thursday, May 23rd, 2013

My Guitar


After many years of longing and watching others, I finally got my own guitar…and I’m actually learning how to play it.  I always knew that playing guitar took practice and discipline.  Being a fortunate person I have known a lot of talented musicians over the years.  Music has always meant a great deal in my life but until I took singing lessons, I didn’t realize that I could have the concentration needed to actually learn.  I admit, I am extremely distractible.

Playing and learning an instrument has made me feel more confident.  I don’t really know why.  Perhaps it’s just that I’m believing in myself more.

Learning how to be loud has been a big help.  Realizing this came when I was taking singing lessons.  Growing up I was consistently told to be quite, and to sing and play guitar or any other instrument you have to be loud.  That’s the whole point, making noise.

So off I go, learning chords and songs and being loud.  Perhaps you’ll get to hear me someday.

Fat vs. Fit

Thursday, May 23rd, 2013




After my last trip to the Doc I had to ask myself the question; Is the goal to be thin or to be healthy?  According to his scales I have actually gained weight in the last little while and obviously I’m not happy about that.  It sent me into a pretty negative head space actually.   Having been a fat girl my whole life I was really hoping that even at this late stage I could change myself to being a skinny girl.  Yes I want to be healthy and that is still the goal, but a small part of me has always wondered what it would be like to be the skinny girl.  I feel shallow when I say that; I also feel that it is pretty unattainable.  For myself the balance is between doing things that make me feel good physically with the things that make me feel good mentally.  I want to enjoy my life as much as I can.  Currently I am incorporating  being healthy into enjoying my life.  I’ve been working at staying healthy and gradually getting fitter so the weight gain was a bit of a let down.

The confusing thing is that there are conflicting opinions about whether or not you will gain weight due to increasing muscle mass.  It may seem a bit arbitrary but I am going to chose to believe that my recent weight gain was indeed due to increased muscle.  I am definitely in better shape now than I have been in years.   Having gotten closer to the fit/fun ratio recently I also feel as though I have made some of the mental changes necessary to maintain a healthy lifestyle.  Now I have to forget about the skinny girl fantasy because It is unlikely that I will ever be consumed with exercise so much that I will get there.

Epi-genetics, a love of food and age are conspiring right now to keep me the way I am and always have been I suppose.  Please don’t take this as giving up, because I’m not.  I do however have to accept and be ok with the fact that I will never be super-model thin and quite frankly I would never want to be that unhealthy.